=IT WAS A LONG PAUSE=

Hello everyone..Its been a while since I blogged..Its just that schedule was very tight, everything was so scattered and most importantly I just didn't know what to write about. I mean its been months since I have thinking about writing something, but NOTHING, just nothing rocks my brain.Its not that my life is boring or something, its just i don't know.. I read my friends Blogs and I am like OMg wat the hell...look at them writing such awesome stuff and me..jeez nowhere near =(

But o well summer vacations have commenced and I am really hoping that i come up with something to write. Apart from hanging out with people, I have decided to do things that I should have been doing since forever, like writing, exercising ( I have to loose those EXTRA kilos), dancing, reading, and hone my skills in Photography (my new love)..Its a shame i live in Barbados, a place where people die to visit and Its b'ful, the beaches, the sunsets, everything..its awesome, and it has inspired me to capture all those b'ful scenes that people die to see...

Well apart from creative stuff, I am looking for a job too..but O well..and ya if nothing of anything happens, I wanna sit home, watch TV serials online, eat and sleep..LOL

Cheers..!!

~!!!~ BREATHLESS~!!!~

The gashes still bleed,

Making it hard to breathe...

Its Like a hole through my chest,
All it does is make me feel empty inside..
I can hear nothin but my soul scream..
i'v numbed myself,
but as i hear your name the pain starts coming.
makin me feel in my heart,
You are'nt there is any of my dreams,
All i see is an endless road..
i am looking for something,
something that i don't know..
I keep on running in the dark..
My feet taking me as fast as my racing heart..
Its not the darkness that scares me, Its the silence that engulfs me..!!
The uncertainty of my search makes me scream.
Yeah! I wake up screaming every night..
Making the gashes around the hole in my chest bleed...
No matter how much i want the time to stop..It passes...
Every tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does..!!
The absence of u is everywhere I look..
No matter how much I try to numb myself the pain comes back..!!
I eat nothing and sleep like a zombie..
That is what your going away has done to me..!!

The events of the last few weeks have really made me wonder about alot of things..Like LOve and relastionships..!! Defining Love is the toughest task on this planet..Different people.different meanings..Defining a relationship still an easier task..Relationship is a connection made on d basis of trust,love,commitment and endless giving. But when i look at the incidents that take place it makes me wonder is there anythin called as EVERLASTING LOVE OR FOREVER WITH U......Is it easy to trust anyone..?? why cant we do so..didnt pur elders trust one another..why was it easier in their times and ours???? When asked this question people strart the blame game, men say its women who are bitches,women say nah we are innocent its men who are dogs...!! Therefore leading to an endless argument with no answers As we have read,heard and watched in the movies all about true love and all..does it really exist in real life..We all say we want love like that..then why dont we all make an effort to do so.Why do we hurt each other..WHY???? Don't once we put ourselves in the other person's shoes and think how much it hurts.. don't we even realise how much heartache it would cause..How afraid we'll feel when trusting anybody..men or women, heart is a heart the pain is piercing..! People say life is changing we need to think about our carriers and all dat bullshit...Well according to me it's a bunch of bullshit...Love is love people ....How can u leave somebody alone and devastated to make your life..What d u all think that the other person won't undrstand your goals and ambitons.Well in my opimion she/he will coz love is all about understandin and if they dont well too bad they are'nt worth it..! Why is it so diificult to come face to face with the truth why do u have to make so many excuses in d name of other things..People say it's the other person who makes it complicated or OH! NOO we can't hurt anyone, they have done alt..Really..guys when u are doin so u are hurting ur so called other half more than anythin..!! when people drift apart they say, Oh well!!! u know it was him or her..the distance came in between us or well they went with someone else...ahh we fell out of love..!! CRAPPPPPPPP again huh..!! how can anythin come in between pwople when u love one another another excuse is well we want to enjoy and not stagnate..Guys enjoyin neccassarily doesn't mean humping anyone u see..enjoying means relivin urselves from stress, there are lots other ways of doin so..!!! sometimes we let li'll arguments come in between us and we decide we have to leave d person..WHyyyy...why do so dont we fight woth our friends or parents or siblings do we leave them..Than why this person doesnt he/she special to u...More special than anyone when u can patch up with ur parents and peers why not that someone special..Arent they supposed to b closer to us than anyone!! Another thing most people belive what their friends or anyone has to say about their other half..i ask why....did u believe then before askin them out or anythin huh?? In love or anythin You are just supposed to believe the person u are with not the whole world..!!Coz in a relationship 2 is a company 3 is a crowd.!!! How can u let anyone break the trust u share with someone..!! In d end all i would say is no one is to b blamed..Its we who is to b blamed..Its we who takes people for granted and than blame it on evry other thing...Its just US..WE all have to work hard enuff so dat the essence and beauty of love doesn't die and d generation next to us gets a GREAt example about love..!!

Irelandddddd :))

I was watchin P.S. I Love U a really sweet sweet movie, won't say its d best but i still like it..!!!!
Well comin to the point Ireland was one of the locations..OMG....I so fell in love with that place :) <3
You know there are times when all we want is peace in our lives because we have had so much of crap, Ireland is pace like that where we can find peace..It's good runaway... Its my dream to go there sometime and explore the mysterious lands...Ireland is one of the largest islands in d world..It is in Europe and near U.K...
I don't know much about it but yeah all i know is someday i will b there standing in a cliff and watching d scenery :))

A wonderful story with a wonderful meaning :))

When I was a little boy, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his toast, smile at my mom, and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite! When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what he said. 'Baby, I love burned toast.'

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night, and I asked him if hereally liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, 'LittleBuddy, your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides-a little burnt toast never hurt anyone! You know, life is full of imperfect things...and imperfect people.I'm personally am not the best at some things either.'
What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other'sfaults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences -is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing,and lasting relationship. My prayer for you today - is that you will learn totake the good, the bad and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at thefeet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to giveyou a relationship where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker! We could extend this to any relationship in fact - as understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!!"

Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket -but into your own.

No one else can MAKE you happy, Your happiness is a choice you make. See through God's eyes and feel through God's heart, and you will appreciate the value of every soul including yourself.

People will always forget what you do, and they will always forget what yousay, but they will never, ever forget the way you make them feel.

The Dog whisperer - my fav show on TV

I LOVE THIS SHOW MAN AWESOME =)
The show starts with Ceaser Milan on roller skate with 10 dogs and then he takes up cases of various dogs..!! I mean its magic as soon as Milan comes near the dog, how aggressive it is..it calms down...
The way he deals with dogs issss sooo cool..breathtaking..
according to Milan," he rehabilitates dogs and trains people".. his main approach when he deals with his cases us being "calm and assertive". Milan states that ur dog is the reflection of ur emotional state..
Milan runs a Dog psychology centre...which has around 30-40 unadoptable dogs..!!! and his favourite out of them is Daddy:))
strangely Milan has no formal degree in psycholgy.. He read few dog books and that's how he strted to work..!!
according to me Milan is so awesome and the show gets five stars *****

FOR MY BESTEST FRIEND:) ANU (:

Three years ago we talked to each other,
without even knowing we would end up here
sharing the most beautiful bond ever shared
Yes it is U and Me.."The Bestest of Friends",
Bestest of Friens THat is wat we are
Bestest of FRiends is wat we will be.

We shared our deepest secrets which we thought we could tell no one
We stood by each otherwhen there wasnt anyone
We listened to each other with the understanding of a mother
played all the pranks with the bonding of twoo mischevioes frinds.
understood each others relationships with the insight of sisters...

We travelled throughh many crushes breaking many hearts...breaking our too
but wat helped to deal with the pain was our friendship my dear
Moments of emptiness and desolation were not there bcause u were just a phone call away
We fought, we laughed We cried & We shopped
But the m,ost important thing that we learnt together was to deal with life
Thank u for being my pillar of support
Today I am far Away but I know M nearest to your heart
No words can ever explain the wat i feel for u
Nobody can ever take ur place..!1
wherever i go the truth will always be,
BESTEST OF FRIENDS WE ARE...
BESTEST OF FRIENDS WE"LL CONTINUE TO Be

MADE FOR MUMMY ON MOTHER'S DAY